[ feeling : drained ]
[ hearing : radiohead – paranoid android ]
Well, my wallet came back, Pablo bought a scarf, and in a matter of weeks (hopefully!) ... I’ll be receiving a baby and some Threadless tees in the mail.
By baby I mean iPod.
I’m going to name it Phillip …
because I miss Phillip Ozarki. Har, Ozarki.
In return, I must pass AP Chem as well as escape the hole in which Ms. Yoo placed me in. I must!
I’ve been feeling especially worthless lately. I mean, I thought I was simply wanting punishment to that kid that shall not be named but rather than being angry and full of rage … I’m pretty much full of more self-loathing.
I mean, it’s stupid to feel that way just because of some elitist smartass but … I don’t know. I feel like I’ll never understand the whole human interaction thing. I geniunely believe it’s my fault for trying. I’m the one who was stupid enough to believe I had a chance … I’m not a people person, how could I have possibly have the chance? I can’t properly construct sentences when I speak (as well as write). I’m not full of strong opinions on things … ... ... I lack any physique, I am not pretty … nor am I smart enough for hey, an elitist smartass. I’d have absolutely nothing to offer in the end. I guess it was for the best?
I’ll disregard the scarf …
Too sad to care anymore.
On Xanga? You actually care for what I say? Well then! Sign up for Livejournal and be able to read my Friends Only journal at abandonedstar! Xanga blows anyway. Ugh, that was lame.
Im sad that u doubt urself so much when ur a really kool, and really nice person. Tim’s a dick and deserves to be castrated for what he did. I never did like him, and u deserve better. Ur definitely a smart person and smartasses dont like smart ppl b/c theyre jus that; theyre SMART! Ur a great person, and I hope u feel better soon? Cya
-Dan Duron- 9 December, 08:46 PM #
And Diona, if anything, I had once asked Joe, since he made a comment about how he dislikes the senior class, who he could see himself going out with and he said, “Well, not to take this the wrong way but probably Diona and…Polina.” So hah. Then I asked why and he said 1. Coolness factor. 2. Pretty. 3. Being able to further a conversation without being uberly mad in the end. (AKA, smart)
-Jenn- 12 December, 02:29 AM #
-Jenn- 12 December, 02:30 AM #