[ feeling : lonely ]
[ hearing : john barrowman & kevin kline – night & day ]
You know what kind of people make me sad? Those people who you talk to for a few seconds but tend to meander off when someone more interesting comes along. What’s even worse is the fact that they don’t even realize they do it because it’s just how they are and if you went up to those people and told them, they wouldn’t even think there was a problem. You’d get one of those puppy dog reactions where they don’t realize when they piddle on the carpet, it’s wrong. Even as I write this, I bet the people who do it don’t even realize I’m talking about them. Upsetting really.
Just a random thought.
Then again perhaps it just happens to me. As usual, here I am going into one of those menstral rants about how I want to be loved and how everything I do or say isn’t worth a damned thing. And yes, I’m fully aware it’s stupid to blame all the bad on my menstral cycle.
I’m a crazy person. I want to be in a relationship. I want to be chased and wanted and loved. It’s just not for prom … I’m just really lonely. I mean, I guess I was lucky enough to have one serious relationship in my history. Some haven’t even been in one relationship before. But then there are those who reminisce about their past relationships.
“I was so in love this time.”
“I was so in love that time.”
I wish I had dates. I want to go out on dates. I want a brief feeling of love. But who’d date a miserably emotionally unstable cow such as myself? No one that’s who.
I think I’d be horribly paranoid if any guy or gal claimed they had feelings for me though. I’d be under the belief it was some horrible trick. An evil plot even. I’d be constantly thinking about how much they want to destroy me with embarassment or something. I’d never trust such a situation would be genuine. I wouldn’t be able to even comprehend why if it was genuine.
ASEXUAL IT IS THEN! Hoorah … ;.;
Secondly, I wouldn’t worry too much about your present condition. Aunt Flow (if you know what I mean) has a way of making you feel like crap. The best thing is just to remember that it’s that time of the month, and that’s the way it makes you feel. :) And, I’m sure that, if you tried, you could get a date. :)
-Colleen- 3 March, 11:11 PM #
-diona- 4 March, 09:43 PM #
Okay, next time I won’t say just hi. I’ll talk!
-phillio-long-tim-no-comment- 5 March, 06:13 AM #
-Stella :D- 11 March, 01:47 AM #